Afternoon hangs in the backyard with cousins.
Afternoon hangs in the backyard with cousins.
This is a birth story from a lovely homebirth I attended in April last year as written by the lovely, happy, darling mummy Hannah.
One year is how long it’s been since you joined our family! We are so thankful to have you. I have started this birth story over and over again and it’s sat here for almost a year. Sometimes I don’t feel like sharing it because it’s so special and I want to keep it to myself, and other times I want everyone to know because it’s so awesome.
Your dad and I were discussing certain events of the day we met you and a couple of times he told me things about your birth that were different to how I remembered them. I always think it’s funny how in all of my births certain things will come to me later like little flashbacks. Most of them are pleasant and I love remembering those little extra details of a funny joke or something silly I said or did while in labour.
Because I was tired and sore, I was hoping you would make an appearance early just like your two older brothers did. I was also scared I wasn’t ready or prepared to meet you at the same time since the last few months had been so busy with studying and moving. I talked a lot about these things with my amazing midwives. They kept encouraging me and telling me I could do it! The week that I was 37 weeks pregnant, Lisa, one of our midwives, came up to stay with us from interstate, which was so much fun. We had a mother blessing with some friends and ate lots of food, listened to music and just chatted. Everyone decorated my belly with henna and I was given hand massages while I soaked my feet. It was bliss and I felt so pampered! Mummy’s best friend, Aunty Amy, also came to stay with us for a few days. We watched episodes of Offspring on DVD during the day and ate ice cream. The day before you were born I started to have a few signs that we would meet you soon. Belinda, our other midwife, had to go away for a couple of days with work and I hoped she would make it back in time to be there to meet you. I knew it would be alright either way since Lisa was staying with us.
In the early hours of the morning, on Friday the 15th, I started to have a few niggles that felt a little different than what I had already been experiencing for a few weeks. They were only 10-15 minutes apart so I didn’t concentrate too hard on them, but wandered around in the lounge room, hoping you were coming to meet us soon. I didn’t know if Belinda would make it back in time since her flight didn’t arrive until that afternoon. Lisa was still asleep as I was getting ready to take your big brothers and sister to school, and I didn’t want to wake her yet. Amy was up and I let her know I was feeling a little more niggly and that it would be nice if she would come with me to take the kids to school since I didn’t feel up to driving by myself. I let Eve and Miles’ teacher know that we might be picking them up a little early depending on how the day went. We dropped your big brother and sister off and then felt like a treat, so sat in McDonalds car park while we ate a hash brown!
On our way back home Daddy rang to let me know he was coming home to work for the day. He needed a lift back from the army base where he worked. I had a pain while he was on the phone, and got a little snappy with him, telling him to hurry up. I’m pretty sure that’s when we realised we would definitely meet you that day.
When we got home I saw Lisa was up and in the kitchen getting breakfast. She said she could tell from the moment she saw me that today was the day. I messaged Georgia to let her know I thought I was in early labour and she offered to come at any time. I didn’t want everyone to just be waiting around for me so didn’t ask her to come at that point. I rang Belinda and told her as well, but also let her know I thought it was only early stages and that I was sure she would arrive back home before the baby was born. Belinda had been at Miles’ birth five years prior and I had only been in labour with him for one hour, so I’m sure she thought she wouldn’t. Lisa offered to give me a lovely back massage and I felt so relaxed during it, I didn’t feel any pains at all!
I told her I thought it was time to get up and walk around. I wanted to get on with it. She ended up messaging Georgia and telling her to come over. It was lovely having so many women surrounding me. The house was quiet and the atmosphere was calm. I just wandered around leaning on walls and enjoying the quiet. Joel and Lisa rolled out the birth pool and for a moment when I started seeing the birthing room take shape, I felt a little scared of what I was about to go through. I was tired from lots of sleepless, uncomfortable nights and was scared I wouldn’t have the energy to give birth that day! Then I just decided to concentrate on where I was, not get ahead of myself, and take things one step at a time. I noticed I started to need someone to put pressure on my hips during every contraction and thought they must be getting stronger. I enjoyed leaning up against walls during the contractions for support and also to feel the coolness against my cheek when I felt hot and flustered.
I think it was about noon when Lisa asked if I wanted to get into the birth pool. I remember wondering to myself if we definitely knew I was in labour and if I should not, just in case I wasn’t. I have always been a little apprehensive to get into the birth pool since I know when I get out, that most likely it will be under different circumstances than when I got in. That thought is always so overwhelming. It was hard to know when it would be the right time to make that commitment. At the same time the warm water and the comfort I feel when I hop into a hot bath felt very luring. I managed to talk myself into it. I was committed to finishing out the labour and give birth! Somebody came and asked if I wanted the kids to be picked up from school at about one and I said yes. I remember being asked if I wanted Joel or Amy to go and I asked for Joel to go. It felt right being surrounded by just women for a little while. I was starting to feel a little emotional about meeting you and needed to have one more little cry and voice my fears. Lisa asked what it was that was bothering me and on my mind. I had a little cry and told her I wasn’t sure if I would be able to manage looking after four kids and that I was scared. I knew that there was nothing to do but trust that God knew what he was doing by bringing you into our lives, and that you were always meant to be a part of our family. I didn’t want to become more exhausted than I already was by crying. I calmed down and decided it was time to get on with it.
I knew that things were getting more intense and closer to meeting you and found myself looking at the clock in the lounge room. I wondered when Belinda would arrive, and how long I had been in labour for. The next time I looked at the clock it was gone. I thanked Lisa for taking it away and chose to focus inward from that point. When the kids arrived home I heard someone ask if I wanted them to change out of their school uniforms and into their normal clothes. I was so glad I had women around me who were thinking practically. Of course I didn’t want the kids school uniforms in your birth video, Cole!
For the most part having your big brothers and sister there was wonderful. I loved sharing these moments as a family. I got upset at one point when Miles was whispering and asking a question. I realized that pat of the frustration came from the fact I couldn’t concentrate on what he was saying and have a contraction at the same time. You don’t stop being a mum and wanting to meet your children’s needs even when you are in labour! I couldn’t just switch off. The kids took turns pouring water onto my tummy. Lisa floated around near me and I loved having her close, encouraging me. Amy came to let me know the hat I had knitted for you in case you were a girl was ready. She had finished knitting it for me. What an amazing friend! If you had been a girl I wanted you to have a purple hat. It was very reassuring and I was thankful she was there. Belinda arrived and I felt relieved that things were going to plan. When she came over to talk to me I noticed she had garlic breath (I’m always sensitive to garlic in pregnancy). Apparently I was really rude and gave her the hand, shoo-ing her away from me. Daddy had bought a big bag of Minties at the shops and so they directed her to where to find them. I laugh when I see her chewing on them in the video. Lisa also let her know that gargling with a mouthful of apple cider vinegar might help, and she did it, just for me!
I remember your dad being in the pool with me and being so thankful he was there to lean on when I started pushing. At one point he got a cramp in his leg and had to move. I yelled at him that he had made you slip back up inside me while I was trying to push you out! Somebody reminded me that you would descend again. After what seemed like only a few pushes, your beautiful head was crowning. I couldn’t believe it. I was so scared too, even though I knew I could do it. After your head was out, I felt I needed to be a bit more upright, and I moved. Your body didn’t come out with the next push, but I wasn’t concerned. I had felt you rotate and could picture in my head what was happening. I felt like you needed a little help, and when the next push started, I reached down and gently helped your body be born. It was in that moment that I knew you were always meant to be a part of our family and I felt so overjoyed to have the privilege of meeting you. I was so surprised you were a boy! Daddy threw his head back and laughed since we were so certain you would be a girl. The joke was on us!
We named you Coltrane Jack.
You were named after a famous jazz musician and saxophone player. Daddy loved the name for ages, but it took me a while to come around. Now I think it’s perfect. Your middle name is Jack after your grandfather. We stayed in the birth pool for an hour after you were born. The placenta slid out within ten minutes of you being born, and then we just snuggled and let everyone celebrate around us. It was so much fun. When I felt ready, we got out of the bath and your daddy had his first cuddle with you. I took you back as soon as I was settled on the couch and gave you more snuggles and milk. It was so bittersweet knowing I would probably never experience such an amazing thing again, but so thankful for the calm, peaceful and loving way we were able to welcome you into the world. Thank you Coltrane for choosing to be a part of our family. We are so blessed.
You can watch the birth video of Coltrane “here ” if you haven’t yet seen it.
I shared the birth story of Edward a couple of days ago and here is his story in film. This is a lovely story for me being the second I have had the honour to document for this family, having watched their family grow these last couple of years.
Labouring mama Belinda is supported by her husband Darren (a doctor), her midwife Rachel (Midwife Thinking), her sister Philippa and her daughters Jemima (4) and Madeleine (2). The sisters, particularly Mima’s sweet helpful nature, were officially the sweetest thing I’ve ever seen. It is so nice seeing siblings being present for (and taking an active role in) welcoming their sibling.
(best viewed in HD)
Sometimes I have the honour of being present and documenting when a new baby is welcomed into their home. In May I was present to document the arrival of a little brother for Madeleine – one of the first babies I documented the birth of. There is a special honour to watch a family grow and be present for not one but two such life changing events. It is such an honour when I can now call these families friends. I have a beautiful birth video to share in a couple of days but for now, Belinda’s birth story in her words. You can read the last story she shared here.
This is the story of Edwards birth. Edward is our third child and first boy. Our eldest daughter was born via c/s, after a forced transfer of care from the birth centre at Townsville hospital due to me being post dates at 42+1 when I presented in labour. We never wanted to loose our choices of care giver again, so instead opted for independent midwifery care at home for the births of our second and third children. It goes almost without saying that we would have birth in hospital or anywhere really, if that had been necessary for our children, and taken our midwife with us, for that continuous support. I say almost, because many people don’t understand our choice to birth in the safety of one to one midwifery. There is no other model of care available to us, that guaranteed us the care giver of our choice, and it was too important a choice for us to allow it to be up to the fates of oncall rosters, something that my husband and I, as health care professional understand all to well
My pregnancy journey began in a flood of research, as I desperately swayed to try to conceive a little boy. My sister and I have six girls between us, so it was with great jubilation that we found out we were expecting a baby boy. Otherwise it was very uneventful. I enjoyed all of the visits with my midwife Rachel, as it was a time to connect and bond closer. We were friends already, but it was lovely to have an excuse to see Rachel once a month and spend a couple of hours chatting about all things birthy. Rachel asked me early on, if I minded having a student midwife along for the ride, and I consented. So Alina started to come along, and it was kinda fun teaching her all about birthing women. She was really lovely, and I was a little sad in the end that the university refuses to let the students of homebirth women come along, due to the ongoing lack of insurance issues.
Three days before I went I to labour, my hubby finished up from work for four weeks. We had a lovely weekend pottering about and doing last min things to get ready for the baby, including buying a rug for in front of the fire. The whole way thru Eddies pregnancy, the only thing that really came to mind, was that because I was due in May, I would be able to have a fire. Hurray! So we got the rug, and we had organised to do parent teacher interviews the Monday afternoon. We went to school, but the teacher had forgotten, and was away. I was a bit bummed, cos I was 41 weeks that Monday, and I was worried it would be a mental block if we didn’t do it. I had kept thinking that once that was done, I had everything organised and I would be free to have the baby. Anyway, it didn’t happen. I went to bed that night and really struggled to go to sleep. I kept in that twilight place of dreaming and being awake, imagining that I was going to replicate what a few of the women around me had recently done. One going to 43+5 and the other ten days before going to 43+6. I really didn’t want to do that, but we gestate long in my family. My MW was headed overseas when I would be 43, nearly 44 weeks pregnant and that weighed on my mind. So I don’t think I got much sleep. In reality it wasn’t to be much longer and it is a pattern of mine, just prior to labour, to loose what little sanity I have left.
I woke up that night at about 2:40 am to a contraction. It was different from my normal Braxton Hicks. It was deeper and more intense. It was bearable, but I knew I wouldn’t go back to sleep. That being said it was 3 am and I didn’t want to wake up my hubby. So I started to time some contractions to pass the time and got on fb. I also lit a fire. I was excited to do that, cos the only thing I had envisioned about the birth, was that I would have a fire when I laboured and I would sit on the rug in front of my fire during labour. It was very mild at that point. Still I knew it was labour and was certain enough that I got out a pad and put it on. About 4-4:30 I went to the toilet and there was fresh blood on the pad. No mucous or anything, just frank blood. Not lots, I wasn’t super concerned, but I did go and check my emails from my MW, about when she would want me to contact her regardless of the hour, and fresh blood was one of them. So about 4:45 I spoke to my hubby, having disturbed him with my fire lighting efforts and we agreed that I ought to call my midwife and just let her know about the blood. So I spoke with Rachel and she was glad I called, but unconcerned and just said she would get ready for my call later. I sent a facebook message to my friend and videographer/photographer Georgia and let her know that labour had started and got a big woohoo back from her. I called her later at about 5:30 along with Rachel to let them know that labour was getting stronger and could they please come.
Contractions were a bit erratic at that point. Sometimes they were 4 mins apart for about 5 or 6 in a row and then they would space out to 8mins apart. I was starting to moan softly through them. Georgia arrived at about 6 I think and Rachel about 15 mins later. The girls both woke up about 6 and came out to greet me by the fire. Georgia took photos of them greeting me and I had lovely cuddles and snuggles and belly rubs from them. Labour slowed. I wasn’t overly concerned, I expected it to with the arrival of so many people into my space. I just went with it. Around this time I asked my hubby to try to contact our friend and doula for the children, Jacinta who had been intended to come. It turned out she couldn’t come when we called her, so on short notice, we called my sister who lived nearby. She dropped her kids off early to school, and came over at some point after 7. Sometime before she arrived, I asked my hubby to set up the pool and retreated to the bedroom. Rachel, Georgia and I hung out in the bedroom making inappropriate jokes and generally having a good time. I kept thinking it was all a little too jovial to be proper labour. To which Rachel replied that when it was the real deal, I would be falling asleep in between contractions like I had last time. Her words would be prophetic…. I think that might have precipitated me giving her the bird. :)
When my sister arrived I had hopped into the pool. I had been staring at it as it filled, wishing it faster. I called out a hello and got on with it knowing my children would be taken care of. My youngest was being a cheeky monkey, putting on a performance that was both adorable and insanely cute as well as cheeky, telling me to “be quiet mummy!”, to which she got told off for her cheek. Eventually I asked my hubby to take the children away, as they were becoming a distraction. My eldest came back in several times to rub my back and put cold cloths on my face.
Sometime maybe around 8-9 things really kicked up a gear. The pain started to really exceed my ability to cope. This was the point at which i was almost falling asleep between contractions. I vocalised thru as best I could, but started to fall apart. I did my own VE at some point, around 9 ish I guess. I wasn’t watching the clock at all at this point. I could feel babies head, but could also only feel lots of cervix too. It really disheartened me. I could also feel baby still kicking me out in front. I had known he was OP (back to back with me) all thru my pregnancy and had steadfastly refused to worry, knowing that he would turn in labour. But he wasn’t at that point. I wasn’t so worried that he wouldn’t turned, I was worried it would take ages for him to do so, as it had been a slow process with my last and I was starting to freak out that it was going to be another long labour. I had been psyching myself up for a 4-5 hr active labour. I think around this point I might have said to Rachel, well there goes my 5 hr labour and I began to spiral down into despair. My back hurt terribly. I tried getting out of the pool and laying down with hubby behind me on the bed pushing on my back, but I had lost all focus and really was beginning to panic. As the contractions came on, I would cry and begged someone to “help me please”. When my mw checked on my baby, in the back of my mind I hoped that something would be wrong, so I could hand my labour over to someone else and call an ambulance. Still in saying that, I had pain killers like panadiene forte available for my use, but I refused to ask for them, because I knew they would jeopardise my baby, and that was not something I was willing to risk. So on I went….. I was really loosing control now. I hopped out of bed and sobbed through some really powerful pains that hurt my back something fierce.
I think my hubby retreated about then, to go and check on the kids. Talking to him later, he was really starting to be upset by how distressed I had become. My sister stepped in. She was helpful in putting pressure on my back, but I was really coming apart.
I had joked about and also seriously discussed water injections with Rachel all through pregnancy. She was less than keen, as she had never used them in labour before. They had become a running joke between us. I stubbornly told her I wanted her to learn about them. My hubby had helped the MW to give them to me in my first labour with her directions, so he knew what to do (Darren is a doctor). Rachel had googled instructions in the weeks leading up to the birth with diagrams to illustrate where to give them. About 10:15 I think (from reading my notes) I asked my husband to go and get Rachel and tell her I wanted injections. He went off and I was alone in the en-suite. My sister realising I was on my own, came in to support me.
Rachel and Darren came back in about 10:30. It did give me a little laugh (internally) when I saw her and Darren approach me. Rachel with an iPad and pictures of where to inject on it and him with a texta, to draw the spots on my back. Anyway, they really stung, but compared to the previous back pain they weren’t so bad and at least it was done! I got back in the pool. My sister stayed with me, and as I came out of my trance at one point to have a contraction, I told her I was totally panicking and not coping at all! I don’t think it was necessarily apparent to everyone around me, I do think my sister and hubby were aware, being that they know me better than most people, but I don’t think Georgia and Rachel were as aware. Anyway having confessed that I would really like for my sister to finish the rest of the birth for me, she said to me as I finished a contraction, “why don’t we do the next one together?” I agreed and the next contraction, I looked into my sisters earnest and loving eyes, and I calmed down and breathed. I think that the injections had possibly just started to work by then, but it also think that she helped me to gather myself as well. I think Rachel was thinking that listening to where I was at, that I was transitioning and everything was progressing beautifully.
During one contraction, I gave a little voluntary push and it felt good! In the next contraction at the end, my body took over and I began to give little grunts as I started to push. I was really surprised, I honestly thought I was a long way from that point. Somewhere around then, I did another VE. I could feel a bulging waters and head there, but I could also feel a large amount of cervix at the front. It felt just like what I had felt during maddies labour. I began to think I needed to get on my back again to let my body pull that cervix out of the way. I spoke to Rach, and asked her to do a VE. She quite grudgingly put on her gloves, and told me that she wasn’t doing it for herself, cos she knew that it wouldn’t tell her anything she needed to know, as she knew my body was working perfectly. Funny for me too, was that reading her notes later you can tell by the way she wrote them that she only did it for my benefit. I told her I knew all that, but I wanted it and I needed to know. She refused to tell me at that point my amount of dilation(later guessing I was about 6cm, she hadn’t wanted to really do a thorough one that would have discomforted me, plus I was still in the bath!) because she knew it meant nothing, but did affirm what I knew already about the anterior lip being there. She again suggested as she had with Maddies birth, that I float on my back.
Hubby was back in with me by now, and so I floated onto my back, and he anchored me to the side of the bath, as he anchors me in life and with the next contraction my body took over and I began to push properly, not just little grunty pushes at the end of a contraction. First contraction and push on my back I felt a gentle burn at the top of my birth canal/cervix and downward momentum, I felt two pops internally and knew my waters had gone, then a second later heard Rachel comment that my waters had broken and that there was light mec. There was no urgency to her voice, and I was completely unworried. Second contraction I felt baby begin to bulge into my perineum. When the contraction finished, I said to Rachel (quite calmly I’m told) to go and get the children, cos the baby was coming. I remember opening my eyes as the children and my sister entered the room. I told my eldest daughter to jump up onto the bed so she could see and have an image of my sister holding my baby daughter in her arms with tears in her eyes, explaining what she could see very quietly to her, stood at the foot of the birth pool. I closed my eyes again…. The third contraction, I reached down and could feel the head bulging into my tissues and I could feel the burn. Out loud I said “slowly now, take it slowly” or words to that effect and tried to really pant him down slowly to avoid tearing, but he was coming fast! His head was born in that third contraction… Between the third and fourth contraction I called out to Rachel ” can you catch the baby?”. And she basically told me “no you can catch your baby!” I remember the overwhelming sensation of holding his head and then feeling my body bearing down as I pushed on him. Immediately I felt him beginning to turn and move, and felt one shoulder and arm and then the next pop from my body. I don’t know if I was stunned into not moving, cos it was crazy fast, but I remember Rachel telling me to reach down and get my baby. And then it was done! I was opening my eyes and pulling my baby boy, my son! Onto my chest and welcoming him into our family…. He was beautiful! And so tiny!
So my baby boy, our tiny little man was born. He was 3400g born at 11:35am. Our smallest baby by 400g. He was so beautiful and so lovely and my tears were turned to smiles and joy! The whole family has been in a beautiful bubble of love. We are all so in love with him! The girls have been so lovely and call him “cutie tiny baby”.
When looking back at my labour pattern you could see it was somewhat typical of an OP labour. My contractions were erratic in nature. Sometimes they came 3 or 4 mins apart, other times 8 mins apart. I would never have been classed by many people’s definition of labour, as actually being in labour until the last twenty minutess, as my contractions were only 2 in ten until then. Still my body knew its job and Eddy was born pretty speedily really after probably 3 maybe 4 hours of active labour.
Special thanks to Rachel, Georgia and my sister Philippa. You all made the journey that much more bearable, and even joyful and fun at times.
Thank you for reading my story, and I hope you enjoy the video when Georgia posts it :)
(If you wanted to watch a video while you wait. Here is the first birth video I made, of Belinda’s last birth, a beautiful vaginal birth after a caesarian.)
me: oh my gosh, what is that on his face?
theo: da colour of grass
me: I can see that but what is it?
theo: da colour of leaves?
me: yes, it’s green, but what is it?
theo: yes it is the colour of green!